Do you ever get that feeling where you REALLY want to do something but you're afraid people you know might see it and judge you?
That's exactly how I feel. Now I can't say why but you may find out later.
I just can't seem to find the confidence to do what I want.
And you know the number one excrucitaingly annoying thing that happens when you move schools? I can't think of anything to say to people. I will want to be their friend but I don't know what to talk about. Do I push people away? Do poeple think I'm quiet? And then there's the most common question on the universe: is there something on my face? Well no it's actually: is there something wrong with me?
I tried the whole I'm Miss If-you-want-to-be-frinds-with-me-that's-cool-but-if-you-don't-then-whatever thing. But I have a feeling that doesn't work with teenagers.
I think this not having anything to say thing is the major reason why I am not friends with people who I want to be friends with. I mean I have some great friends at my new school now, but I want to expand. I want to be friends with everybody!
Why is it so difficult to talk to strangers? Why do I always feel obliged to talk to poeple? WHY CAN'T THEY TALK TO ME FOR A CHANGE?
I guess expecting poeple to worship me isn't the best outlook on life.
I just feel so frustrated.
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